You know how I keep planning on writing this blog and then I don’t post for years and am surprised by finding several decently-written drafts when I then log back in for the first time?

You know how I want to make my depression my bitch, to use it against itself and come out a stubborn winner and how it apparently keeps failing if this quiet blog is anything to go by?

And then also how we don’t have to take our random negative thoughts seriously? Oh, I may not have posted that one yet…

Anyhoo, I’m taking my own advice from the previous post and writing this blog from now on.

When I remember that I should try to make an entry in my gratitude journal.

Setting a reminder on my phone… right now.

I was also thinking about YouTube for a grand long time – just like I was literally thinking about drop-shipping with amazon because I’m such an avid eBayer that I’ve regularly purchased items 1.5 years before I started seeing them elsewhere on the internet and in stores and and 1/4 the prices, making me feel like I know way too much about good products to not try to make it into a not entire waste of time by doing something lucrative with it – because I’ve come to accidentally know a bunch about how to do YouTube by listening to just so much of it on auto-play that I have to convert that unintended “investment” into SOMETHING. Not the best logic but then I got to add to that:

• But I make funny faces. People keep laughing at my faces, maybe more people might want to see and laugh at my face if given the possibility?
• But dude, you might still have a stalker. You know how he finds you on every social media? How he’s even messaged you from an account with none of the pseudonyms of his that you already know?
• Yes but the operant term there is “may”, and Churchill may have been a fallible human too but he wasn’t wrong when he said that the only thing to fear is fear. It’s true not just from the moral perspective but also from the rational optimist one. We can’t vegetate through our lives in fear of potentials and sometimes betting is the right thing to do. Which reminds me that I need to write a Perennial Bibliography post…
• Anyhoo, you’re not really a video person
• And video is a medium, just choose the right medium for you, dumbo.
• It’s unlikely to be either TT or IG, cuz one I’m boycotting and the other… well I’m not pretty enough and I don’t care for either using filters or for the parent company, just not really my jam. That’s at best a place to
• And I technically already have Etsy in the plans either way but I haven’t yet found a cost-effective production model for any of my better innovations.

Now, I recently took a new job, which got me reacquainted with LinkedIn. They now have a Creator thing, and gosh darned it, I think I’m gonna post giftwrap photos as though it was IG and post the occasional short video of stuff getting wrapped over there like a mini YT O.O

So bitch-making out of my depression (in part) through the process of creativity* and blogging about it, here I come again! XD